May be u see

I write as i cry
What if i would have tried,
Would my life be any different
From the monotony it turned to be...

Can i wake up from this sleep,
Can i make that leap!

Some say its worth it and some say it not ,
Would u be by my side when i take that turn,
Would u be the one holding me to take me beyond...

No you won't, cause you cant even see me,
My soul is bared like an open window
But you have to have eyes that can see me standing by...

I know you cant see..all u see is disguise...
I am right here if u could, but then i am no visible..and you can't yet see the invisible. .

And i stand and I wait for you to hold my hand  ..but u touch me like i never was...
But i am here like i always was..

Staring at the ceiling

I havent written any in a while
Thoughts come by and blur out before I type
Words form up but lose their meaning
Ideas light up but die out before they turn appealing

They say its good to write what you feel
That it is a way to heal
Words can touch your soul and revive your feelings and trigger those healings
But what should one do when all they can do is to stare at the ceiling

Lost in the void with mind blanked out
Holding my hands out to grasp the meaning
Meaning of why I just stare at the ceiling

Touched by love hated by life
Words fail me and a wild scream keeps prevailing

Sing Me

I would be a song for you
if my words could mean what my feelings say
i would be a song for you
if my words could say what feelings can't do

i know you know that i love you
i know you know that i am always gonna be around
but i still want you to know
i am living this life as your song

Sing me to know me
i am your lyrical ecstacy
hear me and you will know
the words I can never say aloud

All i ever was
was some words unspoken
then you put me in your song
a song that reigns my life as most beautiful sound

Things to be

Things that can be
Things which I can now see
Things which make my days a beautiful retreat

Like a feather in a storm
Still daring to go on
Knowing it may drown
But will dry out and flee
A little wind is all it will need

Spent time drowning in the storm
Worrying over why and what is going on
Never looking at the brighter side that can be
These are now things of past
A time gone as it is supposed to be

Flying in this new breeze
I can finally see
The colors all around
And the lessons I learnt while I couldn’t see

The hope the joy
The cheers the dreams
The smile the laugh
Are all good things to be

I want to say it

I want to say it
Say it all out loud
I want to rip my heart apart
With all these false thoughts

Can't say it, can't bear it
Can't do it, can't admit it

Let go of me my wild dreams
Let me be
Let me.. just let me be me

Leave me to what i am
Don't care, don't cry
Don't share, don't you dare

Let go of me my wild dreams
Let me be
Let me.. just let me be me

Living in the dream
That's what life has been
Let me wake up once again
Let it be my saving grace

Couldn't be further away
Couldn't be in this sway
Moments came and moments went
Time kept saying i am not your friend

I want to forgot and want a new start
Let me be my own guard
Let me just get this to start
Let me just... let me be a new born star