May be..

What is that makes us run for things we don't understand or as a matter of fact don't even know! Like for example i have decent life,completely awesome family, an it-can-get-better job (which is grt to have by today's standards) a great group of friends from different times in my life, basically most of the basic ingredients for staying happy and satisfied. But no, i just don't seem to be happy, and its not even that i miss having that someone special that much, ok yeah i do but its not what keeps bothering me (at least not as frequently as the other thing)..that other thing sometimes drives me nuts. It seems i am running after something i don't even know i want, its like i want a grander life, not in terms or money and stuff but just probably grander in meaning, something that's may be worth all the trouble.

It sucks that we mostly end up living life in form of a dull routine, get up go to office come back have some snack may be some drinks and sleep. I mean what the heck! what are we doing...ain't we supposed to be the most intelligent creatures on this whole planet! and what do we do with all that grey stuff in mind!!! nothing! at least i am doing pretty much nothing to feel good about..yeah may be when you party and you are sloshed u feel Oh! man! this rocks! but next day all you are left with is a bad hangover!...

Why is it that we always want to run soo fast and miss out on small specials all around us waiting to be found..may be we should spend more time catching up those small pieces of happiness that we can rather than waiting for something big to happen, may be life doesn't need to have a grander meaning but life is about feeling free of all social bondage's, may be its about picking those small pieces and filling up the void day by day rather than waiting for that one stroke of luck to do it all.

Every single day i spend half my day thinking about what i should make of my life, and i always end of questioning myself, what do i really want. The point is may be i am not supposed to know, may be life is all about finding it out..

May be what i am doing is all wrong, like reaching the end without a start, like trying to know the result of a gamble before even the hands are dealt or before you have even bet a penny..may be life is like an empty jar which we fill with things we love...may be we feel so sick cause we have filled it with wrong stuff...may be its just about letting go off things you don't like and replacing it with all things you want to cherish!

Oh! there are soo many may beeees that its like and decision tree with infinite nodes...is life really meant to be so complex or are we just too good at making it so...hmmm...another thing to dwell on !!!!