Things happening within and around!

I have spent last few days thinking, though that's what i do mostly but somehow it sounds the right way to start Blogging!. Still surprised to see myself doing it...at first i was scared not of what i might write but what would folks say...is my english gud enough, am i using the right words...all this bothered me a lot and made me stay back from screaming out my mind aloud...but now...after all that thinkin i mentioned in the start ... i decided, what the heck, did i ever care about it while writing my exams, did i ever really care about what people think especially in a way that would make me restrain myself from doing what i want!! the answer as obvious was a big NO.

Another worry was the fear of the putting my thoughts across...for anyone to read and opine on their own accord...never been someone who is open to opinions on the personal part of life but i think i missed out on lotta good being tht way!

this is just the start, don't worry i ain't planning to brag about myself all the while...plan to put my thoughts about things happening within and around!!

RiSE AGain

It seems like a life might just come by
If I make that turn in the road
Don’t really know
Can’t be so sure
But yet there is always that one thing
One thing we call hope

Like the first breath we take
Like the first smile we break
Life will rise again and again
After times full of cry and pain

Don’t miss on the chance
Don’t run away from the dance
Things will fall in place
If you just keep trying
Trying when it pains
Trying when you see no gains

It’s a test for the best
Don’t be a part of rest
Don’t look back on what you can’t erase
Make that turn knowing its life that you would face

Like the first breath we take
Like the first smile we break
Life will rise again and again
After times full of cry and pain

NoW...

I am done being sad
I think I will be frank
I will let me see the way I have been
Sullen and tired, fallen and disgraced
Like a broken leaf lying under the rain

Now is a new start
Now is the beginning
Now is when I will smile
Now is when I would rise

I will not walk with my head turned down
With eyes all red and a gloom which all but marks my doom
I am done thinking about what left me behind
I will not whittle the little that’s left of me

Now is a new start
Now is the beginning
Now is when I will smile
Now is when I would rise

Let them know what they left of me was enough
Enough to rebuild my own self the way I see it in rewind
Not cowed down by nightmarish nights
Not tearful over what I believed naively was rightfully just mine

I will dream the dreams
I will not be bogged down by the failures I have seen
I will live if not succeed, on terms of my own
On terms of my own, with a life like the one I had dreamed

Now is a new end
Now is the new beginning

Smile & Breathe

Thoughts just make me wonder

Pain seeps into the life

Sometimes the smile I remember

But it fades as lights arise

Well what to say of it

Is it pain or hate that I feel!

Can I stand up and look far!

Can I smile and breathe

I walk on like a life which just goes on

Even when I touch or feel

In my sense its just nothingness that creeps

At times when I am lost and confused

Like now like forever

I just speak to my dead dreams

Even they fade away from me

Well what to say of it

Is it pain or hate that I feel!

Can I stand up and look far!

Can I smile and breathe

Thoughts just make me wonder

Pain seeps into the life

Sometimes the smile I remember

But it fades just fades away .... Like a tree with its last leaf

About Me!

Don’t like to fiddle around when a simple word would suffice

Never known to use words when eyes could recite

I call a spade a spade and I hate when people evade

Care in disguise is what my heart seems to like

Love I thought I know but finally no more than unknown

Trust is what I hold at the top in my eyes

Friends is what I feel, I have been blessed from divine

Have never stopped to dare at times when I care

Though honestly, those times becoming rare J

Overall I am quite nice if not so simple and refined

Have managed not to lose my heart but kinda lost in my mind

I wish someday I would find

Things that would redefine

What I am and what I can!

What I Could Have Been!

You took some of me from me

And now I don’t even know what I could have been

Dreams didn’t come true

My heart just turned blue

My eyes fill up with tears when in my mind I still hear

The words that you had said to me

When you were close to me and when you walked away from me

I can’t clearly think or find

What it is that you left behind

I am lost like a bird in the sky

When winds have changed and directions redefined

Why is it I still dream of you

And worst I cherish every dreaming moment of you

I find it hard to wake myself up

Knowing there’s no way I would find you, like I find you there

I am not sure what I am turning out to be

Without you by my side to tell me all that I could be

I fear my own mind, cause’ alone there’s nothing I define

What I lost I can’t find

What I have keeps slipping out of my mind

Being lost was fine till there was hope in divine

But hopes been burnt the dreams been shattered

On my own doorsteps my heart stopped the flutter

My mind is filled with haze my eyes are all dazed

What could I have been had you stayed with me

A rhetoric in my mind is what I could have been had you stood by me

Knowing I can’t find an answer that would define

How my life could have been

Which went away as you walked away

Taking from me some of me and what I could have been